Sharon,
I felt the same way that you do now. I was totally freaking out after my surgery, worried it didn't work, scared by every pain... it sounds like you're on the right track. (I also had surgery with Bitan) It's a huge surgery and it will take you a long time to recover.
I'm now 7 months post-op and am postive that my surgery "worked". It's a slow process... for me each week I gained something new, could walk further, sit longer, take less pain killers... then one day it just hit me - things were a lot better and I was able to relax and enjoy the ride. I think I hit that point around 3 months post-op.
Things will get a lot better after you are beyond the 6 wk point. That's you're first big milestone. I couldn't get comfortable sleeping until around then either.
Here is a suggestion - I wore a pedometer all day everyday the first few months and it let me see that each week I was walking further and could do more... that really made me feel better and helped calm the nerves.
Take care and please take it slow.
Texas-T
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